تاریخ : سه شنبه 89/4/22 ساعت: 10:7 صبح
salam,ba arze adab o khaste nabashin k hedmate hamegi....man 2khtari hastam ke emrooz tavasote yeki az doostan be in sait moarefi shodam o didam rahat mishe ke moshkelat ra nevesht
man 2 sal pihs ba pesari ashna shdam ke dar avale ashnaee hich ehsaso hich alage ee beheshan nadashtam,ama kam kam bad az gozashte chand vaght az ashnaee hese alage beheshan peida kardam ama in ehsas kheili bishtar shabihe adat bood,albate ushun be dide ezdevaj amadan jlo o belakhare kari kardan eman betunam beheshan etemad konam..moshkele ma az koja shoru shod,man dar gozashte gabl az ashnaee ba inaga ba ye agaee ertebat dashtam ke bishtar shabihe rabeteye doost dokhtar pesar bood...modate 2 salo nim ba un aga boodam o ushun dar avayel tasmim be ezdevaj ba man dashtan o motasefane man hichgah az lahaze manteg natunestam khodam ra gane konam ke zaneshan besham...dar in hein o dar in 2 salo nim rabete ma baham rabeteye jensi dashtim ama na dar hadi ke bekaratam ra az dast bedam...in rabete gozasht o ye rooz baham sohbat kardim o ishan behem goft banabe bazi az agayedesha va ejaze nadadane marjae taglideshan,in ezdevaj nemitune surat begire..man az in babat narahat nashodam doroste beheshan alagemand shodam ama nadar hadi ke bekham ye omr bahashun zendegi konam,in alagemandi dar hadi bood ke hichgah az kuchiktarin mohebati hala zaheran ham shode az man darig nakardan....ta inke ye modat kheili beham rikhte boodan az inke in majara nemitune soorat begire o...va man ham yejuraee hoshal..yadame chand roozze gabl az goftane harfe ishan man rahiye mashhad shodam o hamunja az emam reza khastam ke khodesh kari kone ke in vaslat soorat nagire o in aga kam kam nesbat behem sard she o...kheili vaght bood ke mikhastam be har bahane azashan joda sham ama rastesh mitarsidam ,akhe ye bar tahdid karde bood ke age az zendegish beram birun mano midozde o mibare ye ja door ke daste hich ahadi behem narese va dalile dige in bood ke haraght mikhastam un rabete beham bezanam ta yejuraee beheshan migoftam mizad zire gerye o eltemaso va hata hazer bood az agayedesh begzare...akhe un aga sheikhi booddan...begzarim in rabete tamam shod va emam reza karesh dorost bood o chand rooz nagzashte javabe man dad o manam khoshal..ama hanooz azash mitarsidam...albate inam begam roozae ke man ba un aga bodam cahat ham mikardam ba adamaye motefavet,ye chand ta pesar boodan ke agid e ashtam ke adam mitune ba jense mokhalef doost bashe ye doostiye mamooli mesle ham jense khodesh. va...dorane javani o fekraye bache bazi....ta inke ba in agaee ke dar avale satr goftam ashna shodam.avayel alage ee nadashtam,hata bazi vaghta mishod ke az inke chera hamgade mane ya az man bolandtar nist narazai boodam o ...ama chera dorug begam mohaebataee dar hagam kard o gozashtaee neshan dad ke rastiyatesh az hich mardi bar nemiyamad...az gozashtam bakhaba shod...avayelesh barash sakht bood ama hazmesh kard..ta i nke ba in aga rabetamun be hadi resid ke monjar be rabeteye jensi shod...rabeteye jensiye pishrafte ke mamoolan sharan mokhtase mozdavejine..ama moshkeli ke inja rokh dad in boood ke ye dokhtar bad az rabete jensi bayad ba pare shodan parde bekarat ye gatre khuni ham shode kharej she,ama baraye man in etefag nayoftad..dige shoma bagiyash hads bezanin .che mitavanestam begam...sakht bood baram ama shavahes chized ige bood...ama shoma ke garibin rahat mishe goft behetan,man avalin baram bood ke ba in aga rabeteye nazdikiye dokhul dashtam..begzarim...ta inke in mssale hal shod o...amadan khastegari...avalesh khub bood..khastegari man ham un namzadiye rasmiman 2.3 hafte bishtra tool nakeshid ke khanevadash ebraze narezayati kardan..harfo hadisa mardom shoro shod o telefon be manzeleshan o....ama man rabetam ra ba in aga nega hdashtam nemidanam chera chon behesh etemad dashtam,dar hadi ke pishe khodam fekr mikardam age erade kone mitune kuhe nazdike hanamun ra kharab kone..gozasht ta inke in aga raftan kharej,baraye modati,va an moge bood ke man fahmidam ke doost dashtane man ye alage sade nist,dar hadiye ke nemitunam naboodeshan ra be sadegi tahamol konam...ama shabo rooz gerye kardan ...dar zaher khandidano dar dakhel khord shodan gozasht ta inke bargashtan...bazam rabetamun edame peida kard jensi o....fekr kardam ke hamechi dorost mishe ama nashod...khanevadash gaboolam nadashtan..unam ba khanevadash dargir shod,va man adami yam ke hichvaght doost nadashtam beine khanevadash o un fasele biofte...hardafe mifahmidam ke ba khanevadash dargir shode man az tu azab mikeshidam,chon mogaser mano vojudam boodim..madaresh mariz shod ta ye chand vaght ba khodam dargir boodam fekr mikardam pa gadamiye mane ke in etefag oftade....begzarim..man alan chekar konam/jedi...rabetamun mesle sabeg nist..hamechi beham k horde..akhlagesh mesle sabeg nist...behem badbin shode..harrooz mano be ye rabeteye namashrooee motaham mikone...har roooz gozashtam ra tekrar mikone.har rooz mige u alave bar man ba digaran ham dar ertebat boodi o...kheili behem soe zan dare...va in akhlagesh mano azar mide...nemidanam bayad chekar konam...midunam dige rabetamun mesle gozashte nakhahad bood,chera ke eshtebahi ke dar gozashte mortakeb shodam bad az 2 salo nim zakhmesh baz shode..ama dar in modat man na khiyanati behesh kardam na...midanin chiye,man doost daram bahash bemunam,nemikham ke in rabete beham bekhore,mikham ye bar bara hamishe hamechiz ra bezare poshte saresh o gaboolam kone...nemkham har rooz gezavat kone,dahan bin bashe o....komakam konin,
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+| نویسنده :حسین ملکی
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